Stutz (Literary Notes)

Stutz is a documentary that is ostensibly about therapy, but is really about the endearing relationship between Jonah Hill and his therapist.

Notes

  • Life force pyramid
    • Body
    • People
    • Yourself
    • If you’re lost don’t try and figure it out, work on those three things: work out, initiate relationships with people, write (journal)
  • Part X
    • Antisocial part of you, wants to keep you from changing and growing
    • Voice of impossibility
    • Tells you who you are
    • Can’t get rid of it, always there
    • Pain, uncertainty, constant worry
    • Need it to grow though, from adversity
    • Learn to love the process of nullifying pain, uncertainty, constant worry
  • String of pearls
    • I’m the one that puts the next pearl on the string
    • line, circle, line, circle, it’s a series of actions
    • You keep going, all actions are equivalent, just the next action, all the same size
    • The winner who is willing to go through uncertainty and accept the consequence
    • In the pearl there’s a small turd, can’t think about the turd inside the pearl, pearl around every turd there’s good even in the bad
  • Shadow, the version of yourself you want to hide from the world the most
    • You can see yourself that way even with so much other success
    • It’s the part you are ashamed of
    • First you need to find your shadow, visualize a time you felt inferior/embarrassed/ashamed of, the part you wish you were not but you are and can’t get rid of it
    • Talk to your shadow, how did you deal with him
    • Shadow needs attention from you only, what can you do to make up for not paying attention to him?
    • Anything high stakes, have a conversation with the shadow and tolerate what happens, other people’s opinion feels way less
    • Constantly relate to it, respect it, otherwise it will become destructive
    • Looking for wholeness
  • The snapshot (the realm of illusion)
    • You are looking for the perfect snapshot (moment, wife, job, perfect x)
    • No movement, no depth but you’ve told yourself something magical happens if you get to that
    • But, pain, uncertainty, and constant worry
    • Drive for success is trying to get to that snapshot but depressing when it doesn’t live up to
  • The maze
    • Always involves other people
    • Example when someone always wants to talk about another person,
    • Quest for fairness puts your life on hold but it’s a maze that doesn’t let you move forward
    • You can’t get that time back
    • You’re not going to get it from others, but satisfied by active love
    • Imagine you are in a universe filled with love, dense with love, feel yourself taking in all of that love and place all of the love in the universe in your heart
    • See the person you hate/despise and send all that love towards the other person, hold nothing back, feel it enter their body and become one, you can become one with anyone
    • It’s not for forgiveness, not for them, it’s so you can move forward
  • Radical acceptance
    • When something goes wrong, need a reflex to squeeze the juice out of the lemon, find the use from it
    • What am I going to do about it now
    • Not allowed to make a judgment, find something positive about it
    • Faith that there is something of value, everything becomes more meaningful
    • You get meaning from small things, all events have value, if you do that there is tremendous opportunity
    • Like a plan going through the cloud, can’t judge everything by your current experience
    • Every thought affects your mood
      • Grateful flow, remembering the sun above the clouds even if you can’t see it
      • Process of creating things you are grateful for, smaller the better so you feel the gratefulness
      • Keep naming things, then stop naming and feel the feeling take over, that’s grateful flow
      • Make it a creative act, dig to find things, it helps. Don’t say the same things over and over
      • Be grateful as much as possible, part X tells you not to be
  • Loss processing
    • Worrying about loss
    • Potency of non-attachment, pursue it but also willing to lose it
    • Pick something you’ve become too attached to that you are afraid to let go of it
    • Imagine a tree, you are grasping a branch, you’re afraid to let go, but you do and you fall, say you are willing to lose everything and you hit the sun and your body burns up, you’re radiating a loving feeling and you see all the suns everywhere saying “we are everywhere” all you can do is give you can never take
    • Not trying to be detached, move towards that one thing can take away your sense of wholeness
  • The secret of life is that you won’t figure it out ever, happiness is how you accept that, then what you do about it